Sharing My Honesty

Lately I've been avoiding God's word. Not God, just the Bible. See, things have been rough in my life lately as I have been struggling with anger and hurt in my relationship over something relatively small. (But isn't that the way it seems to go?) And as I took steps away from the beautiful gift God has given me the only thing I could do was reach out to Him in prayer and ask him to show me the right way to handle things. Two days too late later God forced my opportunity to confront the situation and work it out. Which I am so thankful for...the weight i had carried on my heart was almost too much to bear. And I had cause it to be there! Anyway, looking back over the past few days I realized there were several time when I felt God calling me to His word but I ignored it, ran away from it even. And I think the reason was this: I knew that His word would expose the wrong thinking and the hurt in my life and I just didn't want to face it and heal yet. I wasn't ready to give up my pain in exchange for forgiveness of myself and my other. Seeing it now I see how stupid that was and wonder what in the world I thought I would accomplish by dragging it out any longer. But at the time, it seemed like the right thing to do. Isn't it strange how we can view a situation so wrongly when we don't allow ourselves to view it through the clarifying lens of God's perfect Word?
God, may I never again run away from Your Truth and exchange it for my petty, blind thinking.

The Trials We Face....

"8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body.12 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you." - 2 Corinthians 4:8-12

All trials come so that we may be sanctified; but even more so that our struggle may be used to further the Kingdom and give the hope of an eternal life with Christ to another.  May we never forget, in the midst of our struggles, the true meaning and purpose of our lives here on earth.